What do you call your depression? How do you describe it? How do you combat it?
This is something I wrote a few days ago:
I am so sad. So deeply, deeply sad. It’s almost that it is so strong of an emotion, so overpowering and overwhelming that simple words do not come close, not nearly close enough, to describe even an ounce of it.
I wish I were able to depict it artistically in some way. I understand and appreciate those who do. Sometimes I will google “sadness” or “depression” and click on the images tab to find the one that speaks to me the most.
All the synonyms, again, are unable to express it nor define it correctly nor accurately. It is so immense and heavy and weighing. Sorrow, gloom, despair – these all seem like cardboard cut-outs of the same word, and it does not express the true nature of it.
Sometimes in pictures, it’s shown as a heavy burden, like a ball and chain. Or a weight on someone’s back or shoulders. Sometimes it’s depicted like a ghost shrouded in black, or a scream, or a soul being tortured in some way. Agony, defeat, these are getting closer when you look at others’ visual depictions of it.
It is a hopelessness
And that is where my writing ended that day. It is strange for me to be unable to put things into words, as writing has always come so natural to me. I can see poetry possibly being an effective strategy for helping me to express my depression, though I haven’t dove into poetry for 20 years.
Let me know what tools you use to describe your own depression, or to express whatever turmoil you’re struggling with inside.