I got the job. They called me the same day.
All the stuff I was alluding to last night (in my last post) is right up at the forefront now. There’s not denying it. Here’s the basics: marriage in shambles, finances in disarray, family breaking apart, personal mental health going down the tubes quickly.
I should be thrilled that I got hired. But I feel nothing. I’m in a dense, heavy fog, like I’ve been sedated. It’s not just tiredness. When I’m so exhausted and sleepy that I can barely walk to my bed, as soon as I lay down I’m wide awake with thoughts.
They don’t go away. None of this is going away until it is dealt with.
I don’t have the answers. I quite honestly don’t know what to do. And I’m so godawful tired that I can’t think clearly whatsoever. Any ideas?